Since Aurora just finished Chapter 2 of Sacred Spaces: Getting On the Same Wave Length, I decided to reread it and take notes in my journal.
It is the most scientific chapter, and it covers “heart coherence” and brain waves (we strive for Beta 1 and Alpha: relaxed mind, gentle thinking, receptive, enhanced focus and learning).
The quote above stood out to me and took me back to my journey with Cowboy, who I had such a deep heart-to-heart connection with.
I’ve been wondering how that happened, since he was not an emotionally coherent horse to begin with and I was going through the most difficult, chaotic time of my life. How did the two of us basket cases ever come together?
I can only guess that we bonded in our brokenness. I somehow perceived the hurt and insecurity in him, and him in me, and it developed some level of mutual empathy, understanding, and desire to be together as much as possible.
If I wasn’t with him, I was daydreaming about him. I’d get away whenever I could to ride him off alone or just be in his presence. My mind was all COWBOY, COWBOY, COWBOY. It rewired itself for him. The channels still cut deep, from the thought of him straight to my heart. I’ll take that connection to my grave, and hopefully he will be there on the other side of this life in some spiritual realm.
In a nutshell, I was desperate for that connection. Absolutely desperate, and I was like a heat seeking missile to attain it.
I am not that desperate now. My life has entered a whole new phase, and I am a different horsewoman with a different horse. Tumbleweed isn’t as needy, and neither am I.
So, this is new territory for me in many ways and I’m finding my way through it in a new way.
I’m reading another book now, Horses, Humans and Love, by Tim Hayes, and so far I’m finding the same theme—connection through attention. Getting out of your head, unplugged from the world, and throwing yourself wholeheartedly into the horse / human relationship at hand. We all know that this relationship is valuable, even essential, and because of that, we do whatever it takes to develop a heart-to-heart connection.
My horses make me happier and stronger, and many of my most purely joyful moments have been with them. They help me get my heart right, and that affects every other facet of my life. That happens to be the theme of this new book, and I am really enjoying it so far.

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