My ring arrived today from Scotland, and I can't stop looking at it.
Cowboy's. Hair. Cowboy's hair. Cowboy's hair!!
Wow.
I held it up to Tumbleweed and he smelled it for a long time.
I couldn’t take my eyes off of it all day yesterday. When I was playing my flute.
Wow.
I kept thinking, this is Cowboy, and I was dealing with all the emotions over again, but in a different way. I was wondering what it meant to carry a soul with you. How can I access it?
On the way out to the barn. Wow.
Standing in my kitchen. Wow.
Standing in front of Cowboy’s old stall.
I don’t have answers to that question. Yet.
It also occurred to me that this ring is not one I will be able to wear daily. It’s a ring for going out or living a more leisurely life. I contacted the maker about getting one for everyday wear, and that is when she told me about sealing the hair, something she can do with the other styles, but not this one. The other styles are also inset deeper, which protects the hair even more. Since this current ring isn’t sealed, you wouldn’t want to get it wet.
I wouldn’t change a thing about this one because I love the raw hair, but I did order this one.
Unfortunately, she sent the remaining hair back to me, so I will need to go through the whole process again.
I took Tumbleweed to the state park a few days ago. I was amazed that he remembered everything we did last year. It was as if no time had passed. He was ready to work.
I wonder if being the only gelding has made him grow up. Mares never play. They’re always serious about one thing or another. Perhaps, Tweed was relieved to get away.
The last time we were at the state park together, Cowboy was still alive and a vital part of my life. This time, it was just me and Tumbleweed. When we got home, there was no horse waiting for me at the gate, only Tumbleweed by my side.
Back in the day, Cowboy would hear my truck and trailer pulling in and he’d come to greet me. Every single time.
Now, Tumbleweed greets me.
I decided that at the end of this season I’m going to have Sarah make one more ring to commemorate our first year alone together. It’s going to be Tumbleweed’s tail hair. Why wait until they die? We have a lot of years to look forward to, and almost six that are already behind us.
Wow.
That's a beautiful ring. I can see why you love it. I do love the idea of having hair made from a living horse. I think that's a great idea.
ReplyDeleteYes, I always wait until after they pass, but the thought came to me that this will be an important year for us, and I want to be reminded of Tumbleweed, too, not just Cowboy.
DeleteWhat a special ring! Very nicely done.
ReplyDeleteI wonder if mane hair works as well, I want to get something done with Coyote Belle's lovely multi colored mane.
Tumbleweed is definitely all grown up now, isn't he? Maybe he will build his own special place in your heart to keep Cowboy company.
That’s a good question. I could give you her contact info if you want to ask her.
DeleteTumbleweed and I are definitely on the path to that special place Cowboy and I got to. That’s why I want to have a ring made for him next fall/winter to commemorate what this means for us. There’s already a difference in what I feel for him that couldn’t occur while Cowboy was alive. I needed this loneliness.
Ohhh, Cowboys ring turned out so beautiful!! What a special feeling his hair fosters, like a hug.
ReplyDeleteIt looks like you are really getting into playing flute again. Tweed is a smart guy. You are going to have another great year with him! Good to see you posting :)
The flute is probably the reason I don’t post as much. I babysit a lot, and when I have free time I’m playing the flute or working with horses. I have been very obsessive working to get back what I lost. I had my first lesson yesterday and my instructor was able to correct a lot of foundational problems, bad habits i formed many years ago. They’re not corrected yet, but she saw them and gave me strategies to correct them.
DeleteThat’s true about the hug. I wore it to a cello concert last night and found myself touching it a lot. It’s grounding. I got his hair sent off to Scotland again for the everyday ring. It will be easier for her this time since she already has my ring size and no stone to choose.