Just two weeks ago, we were riding Penny and Cowboy out on the trails, and she was doing great. She looked awesome, fat and happy--the picture of good health, like all the other 8 horses in the herd.
Tomorrow, will be the second week since I found her laying down. Even though she's in her mid-20's, and you kind of expect things to starting breaking down with older equines, the difference was shocking. Healthy to death's door, ... seemingly overnight.
Fast forward to today--she gets healthier and stronger and more horse like--and I am very hopeful we will get to the other side of this.
But what I'm writing about today isn't really that, it's what happens to owners when they're in this time frame--the in-between, doctoring, sicky, weak, roller coaster. Luckily, I'm not in it very often, but the few times I have been, I can safely say, have been awful.
So, guess what? I learned to knit! I've knitted about 10 dishcloths and one long winter scarf. Why did I learn to knit? Because to sit and wait and doctor and monitor and worry made me think--I need to KNIT! I looked it up online, bought some knitting needles and yarn, and now I'm a die-hard knitter. I'm here to say, knitting helps you get through tough times. The way humanity has always lived with war and famine, disease--death, I imagine many a woman was driven to knit just to keep her sanity.
And that, my friends, is what happens to people when they're in the Sick Horse Funk. I can barely remember a thing about the last two weeks, I was fully obsessed with getting Penny past her illness. I withdrew from my friends, my family...life. I just sat in a chair, knitted, looked out the window, monitored her stall on my app, and went back and forth to the barn, day and night. I didn't even do my yoga or play my piano or guitar! Often, I'd forget to shower.
It's a good lesson to remember about what other horse owners are going through--like my friend whose horse had the mysterious laminitis and abscesses I was helping her doctor. She withdrew, too, declining every offer to ride or get together. Now, I understand why.
Today, Penny is out in the sunshine grazing happily. I'm starting to think her colon has healed. She's eliminating well, so I'm starting to think her GI tract has healed. Her ascites is gone, which makes me think her blood protein is back to normal and her liver and kidney are healing. She hasn't shown any signs of laminitis.
In two hours, I'm going on my first, short trail ride since this happened.
Could it be life returning to normal? Could it be light at the end of the Sick Horse Funk tunnel?
I hope so.