If only's abound. If only my husband hadn't gotten the virus. If only I'd bought a new trailer before the wreck happened...!!
There is a pit of despair, and it's called--
The pit of If Only has the ability to magnify one's challenges. It makes small set backs seem much larger than they are. It makes huge setbacks seem insurmountable.
Before I became sick and lame, my husband and I took a trip to beautiful Sedona, land of the fabled vortexes. People consider these vortexes to be places of energy. They hike to them and erect cairns.
As a horsewoman, specifically, a trail rider, I am accustomed to being in awe of natural habitats--and Sedona is certainly one of the most stunning.
Yet, my personal opinion is that the greatest energy vortex in the world is inside of us.
It's free. You don't have to hike to it. It's a powerful drug and can heal almost any hurt.
It's called Gratitude.
Yeah, the opposite of the pit of, If ONLY.
Now, get ready, brace yourself...but please don't think I'm trying to be this...
The world has enough of those, and doesn't need any more.
But I was raised in the Christian faith, and as such, I read the King James version of the Bible since the day my parents presented it to me and said, "Read this in the spirit of the word, not the letter of the word."
No one ever made me memorize Bible verses, but I read it, and loved it, and memorized portions of it anyway. And now, at 52 years old, verses rattle around in my head, and bring me comfort.
My favorite, and the ones that rattle around most are from Job.
"Thou he slay me, yet will I trust in him."
"Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked shall I return. The Lord giveth, and the Lord taketh away. Blessed be the name of the Lord."
"Shall we receive good from the Lord, and not receive bad?"
(disclaimer: these are not exact quotes--they're how I still say them in my head.)
Those verses remind to thank God in all circumstances. And for me, gratitude is the most powerful vortex I have EVER experienced.
Science backs it up.
Oh, GRATITUDE!! YOU ARE WONDERFUL!!
With that in mind, I finally limped back to my gratitude place. I have blogged about it before:
I'm not Catholic, but my Catholic friend made my husband and I rosaries, and when we were in Sedona, having forgotten ours, we purchased another at The Chapel of the Holy Cross. When we hiked, we brought it with us, and we'd find a beautiful, quiet spot, and take turns offering thanks at every bead.
Some days, it's easy to be thankful, and I just whiz through the beads. Other days, I get stuck and have to reach for anything to be thankful for--but I dig deep and find something. I mean...a rosary does have A LOT of beads!
After I light my candle and offer up thanks, I go to the yoga mat and perform whatever poses I can--which are very few at present.
And I leave feeling better than I did before. Don't get me wrong, I still cough and limp,...
but I'm NOT doing it from inside the bottomless pit of "If Only."
This, too, shall pass. My body will heal, and I will have wonderful adventures in my happy place.
Abraham Lincoln: "It is said an Eastern monarch once charged his wise men to invent him a sentence, to be ever in view, and which should be true and appropriate in all times and situations. They presented him the words: "And this, too, shall pass away." How much it expresses! How chastening in the hour of pride! How consoling in the depths of affliction!"