Thursday, January 4, 2018

It Can All Change In An Instant

Yesterday morning, before work, I walked over ice...




Through snow...



To work with Beautiful Girl.



And, I had not a single problem.

But last night, returning from work after dark, I stepped out of  my 4-Runner onto ice and slipped.

That fast.

An instant.

The lights of the house were off.  I had my hands full of mail.  The dogs were greeting me..from the distance of the grass (should have alerted  me), and there was this clear path of ice from the house spigot, where the sun had been melting snow off our roof all day, that had frozen into crystal clear ice right where I park.

In that instant--all my well planned goals for the year--183 days of training, riding Bee on the trails, staying out of the hospital--almost came to an end.

But they didn't.

Somehow, I was able to maneuver my body, even at that incredibly fast fall, to land in such a way that I hit my tailbone, then my elbow, and lastly, the back of my head.  None of the three points had lasting damage.  My tailbone is the most sore.  My elbow was cut and bleeding through my white shirt.  But, luckily, my head was sore, but not bleeding or swollen.

I was thankful!!  I was happy!!  I was shocked!!  I was happy to be a horsewoman, because I think that life has made me better equipped for such falls.

But after all that, I was MAD as HELL. I was mad, and still am a little mad, that I had come so close to a serious injury that could have changed my life--if it didn't kill me.  I was even mad that it happened getting out of my car, rather than getting on my horse--which made it feel even more POINTLESS!

It was all in an instant. A flash.  Even in that instant--that flash--my mind was amazed at how fast it was unraveling--how utterly out of control I was.

Please be careful. 

EVERY. 

SECOND.

Sometimes we don't get as lucky as I did last night.

(For the record, I wasn't wearing my Sorrels.  And, I'm feeling good enough today to head out and work with Bee again.)

20 comments:

  1. I HATE those falls on ice. they happen so suddenly and violently. They leave me shaken for a minute. I am glad that you are okay. I was almost afraid to open this post.

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    1. Thanks! It’s like I’m learning to walk on snow and ice all over again because I’m doubting everything. But it couldn’t be helped. It was a freak, unavoidable accident. Those are the kinds of accidents that kill elderly people. A good argument for moving south!

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  2. Oh you're so right about how extremely fast these things happen. Truly, we are in so little control over almost everything in our lives that if we ponder that too long, I'd think we'd be too fearful to live. For me, that's where faith comes in. Faith in someone watching over me, keeping me safe, because I'm not so good at it. I am so happy that you're alright. And I totally understand the being mad part. Oh yes, anger comes swiftly and ferociously for me. Wish I had more control over that too! We do have to be careful all the time, but we can't let it stop us from doing all that we want to do that makes our lives full and rich. I personally live with too many doubts and fears in my head. I want to do more and get our of my damned head! Sorry, feeling like a caged lion at the moment. Spending way too much time in my little cage where I work and it's seriously grinding on me that every day I'm getting older, not better and I need to DO more! Sorry to vent. Happy you're ok.

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    1. I was going nuts at work yesterday so I totally understand! That was part of my frustration, how close I came to being unable to do what I love all because of a slip. I am going to try to make changes to our driveway now. My husband and I are talking about that now. But, of course, I’ll be much more wary anyway. I’ll probably wear my sorrels every day, too. 😂

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  3. A not-so-good reminder to seize the day. I remember a time, probably just about 20 years ago, when I worked near Lake Tahoe and I was constantly slipping on ice and falling down. Just to get into the parking lot of my office, I'd have to get a running start, sliding around a corner and up a hill without hitting anybody else's car, and then slide into an open parking spot. Then I had to somehow step out of my vehicle without falling down, get all my stuff, and carry it to the office. Impossible. But whenever we fell, everyone would laugh. Nobody ever asked, "Are you okay?" because we were young and invincible. I'd be a mess of broken bones if that happened to me now. For many years, broken toes where what put an end to my riding plans. Every spring I'd start walking around in bare feet and snagging my toes on table legs. I never learned my lesson and wore shoes, but Arizona changed that with its threat of stepping on scorpions inside your house. And no matter how often I vacuum, the floor is always littered with thorns and stickers that got tracked in. Anyway, I'm glad you get to keep working with Bee. Ice that tailbone.

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    1. The last time I had that kind of fall on ice, I was 5 and got stitches on my chin. 😂 My MIL and BIL fell on ice last weekend and one was in surgery yesterday for a broken wrist. It happens. This is a bad year for ice and I just need to be more careful, I guess. There’s ice everywhere around here.

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  4. I'm really glad it was not worse and you will be okay!
    Um, just a thought, maybe you should wear your riding helmet from the car to the door?
    JUST KIDDING, my friend! ((cyber hugs))

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    1. 😂 that is not a crazy idea! Walking from car to door has proven much more dangerous than horseback riding. 😂

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  5. I was afraid to read this but glad you're ok and can continue to work with your horses. Honestly, I thought a broken "something" was coming in the post. I've fallen on the ice and that's not a lot of fun. The stupidest fall I had was in the driveway getting out of my truck to get the mail, and my sneaker slipped on the gravel as I got out. So it wasn't even a good excuse for going down like ice or snow! I was pretty embarrassed and quickly got up and looked around to make sure nobody saw me. Take care of your head and make sure you don't have a slight concussion. :(

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    1. I thought a broken something was coming when I was getting myself up. 😂 I touched my head, it was still there, my elbow, it felt okay, and my tailbone, and I could still walk. I was amazed. Dodged a bullet.

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  6. I hate ice! Never have liked sliding around. Do you have those cleat things you can put on your boots? They're so nice to have. I'm glad you didn't hit your head any worse than you did, or break anything. Be careful out there.

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    1. I just ordered some yak tracks! Can’t wait to get them.

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  7. Falling on ice is like being slam dunked- glad you didn't break anything; quick thinking on how to land.
    Because of my bad back, I walk very carefully, I can't lift my feet quickly and often trip on frozen clumps. I use a walking stick, a fiberglass stock stick, when I head to and from the horses. But it's always the unexpected places that get you isn't it!
    Get some arnica on those bruises.

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    1. You’re absolutely right. I walk on ice all day and don’t have any issues, but it’s the unexpected ice that gets you.

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  8. So glad you are okay! They have these spiky, cleat things that you slip on to your shoes - I use them a lot in winter conditions.

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    1. Thank you! I just ordered some on Amazon. Of course, I wouldn’t have had them on driving my car and stepping out onto what looked like dry pavement. I will be much more cautious stepping out in the future. Lesson well learned. 😂

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  9. I am so glad you were not hurt worse! Yak Tracks work well for ice. I use my old ski pole when our hill gets icy, it's got a metal grip on the bottom. However, it's when a persons mind is preoccupied that most accidents happen. Not when we are taking precautions. I hear ya on getting angry. I have those moments a lot lately with my shoulder. It pretty much sucks. I try to remember that there are much worse things in life, and be grateful for what I can do. Because, like the title of this post - it can all change in an instant. Hope you heal up and your tailbone doesn't cause you grief down the road!

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    1. That’s a good way to look at it.

      I’m still recovering, and very sad this has slowed some aspects of my training and riding program. Disappointed. My anger the other day was probably at work, too. I was coming home from work late, in the dark, thinking of all that needed to be done and I didn’t think about ice. I don’t like going to work anymore, so there’s that part of it. Something I don’t like played a part in keeping me from something I love.

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